Alanna gasped, her face flushing. For once, she was glad to give up control.
"I don't know how to slow down," she whispered. "I've forgotten. Help me remember."
She wrapped her hands around Delia's waist, slowly tangling her fingers in the long, chestnut hair.
Delia, Delia. Make it all go away. I don't want to pretend anymore. I'm losing myself, and I don't know why. This is what I wanted. What I want. Why can't I be both?
Why do I turn to you like this? The taunting, the endless requests... I should loathe you. Why am I so fascinated?
So soft, so sharp, so certain of who and what you are. Painful honesty. Help me.
With that, Alanna let go of her remaining reservations. Whatever else happened, Delia had a way of bringing reality into sharper focus. After stumbling around in a thick haze of confusion for so long, Alanna surrendered. Girl pretending to be boy, squire hiding a treacherous secret, Alan or Alanna - for this brief, idyllic moment, it just didn't matter anymore.
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"I don't know how to slow down," she whispered. "I've forgotten. Help me remember."
She wrapped her hands around Delia's waist, slowly tangling her fingers in the long, chestnut hair.
Delia, Delia. Make it all go away. I don't want to pretend anymore. I'm losing myself, and I don't know why. This is what I wanted. What I want. Why can't I be both?
Why do I turn to you like this? The taunting, the endless requests... I should loathe you. Why am I so fascinated?
So soft, so sharp, so certain of who and what you are. Painful honesty. Help me.
With that, Alanna let go of her remaining reservations. Whatever else happened, Delia had a way of bringing reality into sharper focus. After stumbling around in a thick haze of confusion for so long, Alanna surrendered. Girl pretending to be boy, squire hiding a treacherous secret, Alan or Alanna - for this brief, idyllic moment, it just didn't matter anymore.